Love your friends

I’ve been feeling really uninspired lately. No desire at all to write about anything because I have been so bored with life, which I shouldn’t be at all. But I have been wanting to write about something that has been bothering me for a long time. If any of you know about my personal life I used to hang out with the coolest group of guys ever. And it would have never been possible if I wouldn't have met Alex Armstrong in 7th grade =D. But anyways they were seriously my best friends and like the bunch of older brothers I never had. I had the best times of my life being around them. We stopped seeing each other and talking on a regular basis about a year ago around this time. But not a day goes by when I don’t think about one of them. When I left for school last fall I went mostly because a few of my guy friends were already going to school there. I did have fun for a while, but I knew I left home for the wrong reasons. That was pretty much the fatal stab wound of the friendship. After I left I never saw them and rarely talked to them. I can only hope coming home was what was best for me. But I guess I will never know. If I could have one more day for things to be like they used to be I would die happy.  If you guys read this blog you should know this. Skippy thank you for always being there for me I owe you still for saving my life haha. You are the goofiest person I know but also the most caring and loving. I miss you. Zerk you cocky bastard. I don’t even know why I miss you. It’s probably because you are so damn good looking. Even though you can be a real dick, you mean well and I appreciate it. Nate oh god I had the biggest crush on you when we met two years ago. When you let me drive the PT I about had a heart attack. I also appreciate the random kisses we exchanged at school too. That was fun. I miss you and your transformers tattoo. Zach! Haha that’s what you are stored in my phone as, because you are like this little ball of fun energy. I could talk to you about anything and I know I could still. I like lived at your house last winter and for that I thank you. Unless it was too clod then I was on Jakes couch. Oh Jake. Where do I start? We did EVERYTHING together I still miss you but things got complicated and we both made mistakes. It’s hard because we are both so stubborn and we don’t think we did anything wrong to end our friendship. I still miss you and maybe someday we will be okay again. Last but not least Jeff, I have never and I’m sure I won’t ever meet anyone like you ever again. Possibly the most sane of the whole group. I miss you more than words could explain. The conversations we had were pure gold. Things were so perfect back then weren’t they? I looked through the facebook wall posts today and they were so funny. We were funny.

 I just want all of you guys to know that you have made an impact on my life that made me a much better person. It’s weird for me to think I am the age now that you guys were when you met me. It’s crazy how much things change and you don’t even notice it until it’s not in your face anymore. I love you all so very much.

Bitches pt. 1

I have typed this blog post four times and ended up deleting the whole thing over and over. First I want to thank everyone who has been reading it. It means a lot. Also I wanted to apologize if my last post offended anyone. It was not my intention to do that by any means. I do feel like you had some fair warning though. I’ve been searching for a topic to write about and it finally hit me, this shit is going to be about bitches who are trying to get the dudes I had. This does contain strong language, and I have noticed that when I get angry I sound a little ghetto. So for that I’m sorry.

 
 I’ve had a couple “friends” in my life who had known I liked a guy and went out of their mother fucking way to try to snatch him up. COOL LIFE. Must be a jealous thing, but that’s sweet for you because they sure as hell weren’t going to get laid by me. I am not a total PROSTITUTE SKANK WHORE like you. Seriously dude? The fuck is wrong with you. This shit has been going on since 8^th grade. Move the fuck around bitch. Its one thing if it happens once, that’s fine. Sometimes my vagina controls me too. But when it has been at least 75% of the guys that I have had feelings for then there is something wrong with you. The best part is I know when this shit is happening. I get this feeling and I connect the two of you together, as soon I get even the slightest hint. You really can’t hide this from me. I will know. And I will find you. I know that you really don’t have anything better to do right now with your life, but for real grow up. I know it won’t last though so I’m not even bothered. What does bother me though is that you call yourself a friend. You wouldn’t know the meaning of that word if it beat the shit out of you and left you paralyzed from the neck down. A friend is someone who hangs with her girls even if she is in a relationship. Not just when it’s convenient for you. A friend is someone who tells the truth, and is there for you when you’re hurting. Not someone who lies and is a cause for the pain. And lastly a friend is someone who acts nothing like you. Even after all these years of knowing each other, thinking “oh she will be better next time, she is just having some problems right now”. Obviously you have some problems you need to get over if you keep this shit up. And I am not going to bother helping you sort these issues out. 

 Xoxo, an angry white woman

Starting out strong, and opinionated.

I completely understand that people are going to fuck, especially when there aren’t a lot of better things to do. But could someone please tell me why a huge chunk of people that I know are getting pregnant? First and foremost I am not in any way disapproving of it. Do your thing especially if you are super happy in a 100% stable relationship. However if you are not really happy and not stable at all WHY THE FUCK wouldn’t you use protection? We have the right, and privilege being Americans where we can get affordable forms of birth control. If you were actually trying for a baby and your 17 years old somewhere in your life someone fucked up raising you and I’m sorry. But if you weren’t trying to have a baby, and you used NO form of contraceptive I don’t feel sorry for you at all. Sorry I’m not sorry for all the future money problems you’re going to have. What I am sorry for is your future child. If he or she is half is fucked up as you are then I’m going to kill myself when I’m 30. I don’t want all of your ridiculous offspring’s running the government. Sorry for the child again because I guarantee not even half of the parents will stay together. What I feel the worst about is the future grandparents because they realized they must have not done a good enough job parenting. When in reality I know some of these future grandparents and they are great people. They should know they didn’t mess up anything and they did a great job. It’s just that their child fell in “love” with one of the stupidest people on the planet. It's not love when someone wants to change things about you and tell you how to go about living your life. I believe that is called a controlling relationship and those are frowned upon. I hear they're least likely to be long term, and most likely ending with some type of violence. So good luck raising your child. I hope for its sake that it ends up not being a complete fuck like you turned out to be.